Dead Man Walking

Encounter a close to retirement age co-worker that I know being walked out after lunch today.  Upon seeing me, she dimisses the HR staff escorting her and demanded that I walk through the final journey with her to let her out of the building.  My mind was completely blank, I didn't offer any soothing words or anything.  Nor does she looks distress.

The only moral from this story - money is king.

With her leaving, there is some unfortunate implications for me, however.

Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.

December lineup

• Nov 26: Reserved
• Nov 27: 1930-2230: NHL - Florida vs Toronto
• Nov 28: 1900-2200: NHL - Montreal vs Washington
• Dec 1: 1930-2230: NHL - Montreal vs Toronto
• Dec 2: 2000 - Reserved
• Dec 3: 1900-2200: NHL - Buffalo vs Montreal
• Dec 3: Enbridge - Month End
• Dec 4: Enbrdige - Month End
• Dec 5: 1900-2200: NHL - Boston vs Toronto
• Dec 7: 1930-2230: NHL - Montreal vs Philadelphia
• Dec 8: Reserved
• Dec 9: Reserved
• Dec 10: 1900-2200: NHL - Philadelphia vs Ottawa
• Dec 10: 2200-0100 next day: NHL - Vancouver vs Atlanta
• Dec 11: 2100-0000: NHL - Colorado vs Tampa Bay
• Dec 12: 1900-2200: NHL - New York Rangers vs Buffalo
• Dec 12: 2200-0100 next day: NHL - Vancouver vs Minnesota
• Dec 14: 1900-2200: NHL - Toronto vs Ottawa
• Dec 15: 1600 - Reserved
• Dec 15: 1900-2200: NHL - Pittsburgh vs Philadelphia
• Dec 16: Lunch - Team Lunch
• Dec 16: 1930-2230: NHL - Ottawa vs Buffalo
• Dec 17: Lunch - Lunch with the Woman who got Walked Out
• Dec 19: Morning / Afternoon - Reserved
• Dec 19: 1900-2200: NHL - Ottawa vs Minnesota
• Dec 21: 1900-2200: NHL - Atlanta vs Montreal
• Dec 22: Winter Solstice
• Dec 23: Reserved
• Dec 26: 1900-2200: NHL - Detroit vs Columbus
• Dec 29: Reserved
• Dec 30: 1930-2230: NHL - Ottawa vs Colorado
• Dec 31: 2000-2300: NHL - Carolina vs New York Rangers
• Jan 8: Reserved
• Jan 9: Reserved
• Jan 10: Reserved
• Jan 11: Reserved
• Jan 12: Reserved
• Jan 13: Reserved
• Jan 14: Reserved

Negative Liberty

在這世上沒太多事情是我想做的, 卻有很多事情屬於我討厭之列 - 但我偏偏要做那些事, 而且越做越頻密, 這是不是很悲哀

消失

偶爾與世隔絕的感覺很不錯, 那感覺遺忘了很久 -

我很須要完完全全消失一段時間, 不接任接的電話, 不見任何的人

我能解決很多人的問題, 如在能力及道義之內, 鮮有不允; 唯即盡知個中背景者, 卻從未能解決我的問題 - 很多事都說過不知幾多篇, 結果還不是那樣, 次次 reject, 四面碰壁.

今天又一次步進賭場, 算來近八個月來去 Niagara 也不到 5 次, 戰績平平, 只贏 $300 左右, 但很愛那一種物忘我倆的境界和與世隔絕的 anonymity.

I've resigned to fate long ago.